the wrong kind of love #32

Chapter 32After a lot more arguing, Mandy heard enough and she stormed out of the house. She got straight in the car and sped off. Nicky sighed and sat down on the sofa. He knew running after her would just be pointless. He never intended on hurting her the way he did, but he couldn’t help the way he felt. He put his head on his hands and cried silently.Mandy continued driving until she got to Brian’s house. She knocked frantically on the door and she heard Kian before he opened it.“Woah, hang on there speedy! At least give me time to…” he stopped when he saw Mandy standing there in a state, “OH, hello!”“Is Brian here?” she cried, wiping her tears away.“Are you ok?” he asked, putting his hand on her shoulder.Mandy rolled her eyes and sniffed, “I need to see Brian!”“I’m sorry love. But he is not here yet! He has not yet come back from work!” he answered sympathetically.“Ok, thanks!” she said before she ran back to her car.“Hang on. You can wait here for him if you want!” he yelled after her. He saw her getting into the car and speeding off.“…Or not!” he added with a shrug. He shook his head and closed the door.Mandy parked the car in the car park outside the pub and quickly walked inside. She was still in tears and frantically searching for Brian in the crowded pub. Everyone was giving her strange looks, but she didn’t care. All she wanted to do was find Brian and cry into his arms. He was the only one she could talk to. Brian walked out of the gents, singing along to the song that was playing, when he caught a glimpse of Mandy, walking around and looking lost. He did not fail to notice the state she was in either. He just stopped walking and looked at her.“Mandy?” he whispered. He soon reacted and ran over to her. He grabbed her arm and pulled her towards him.“Sweetheart. Are you ok?” he asked, full of concern, “What happened?”Mandy stared at him before she flung her arms around his neck.“Brian!” she whimpered.Brian just held her as she sobbed loudly against his chest. He closed his eyes and hugged her a bit tighter. After 5 minutes, she pulled away and wiped her eyes, “I’m sorry!” she croaked.“Don’t be!” he shook his head, “Tell me what happened!”“He admitted everything to me!” she cried, “He even told me he loves him!”“Him?” he gasped, “He’s in love with a bloke?”Mandy looked at him quickly, “I thought you knew!”Brian stared at her, “My mate from accounts told me he was with Charlie!” he gasped.“Aha! Charlie…a bloke!” she cried.“Oh! I just thought…I thought Charlie was Charlene…you know, her name in short!” he whispered.Mandy shook her head, “NO. I can guarantee you, Charlie is a bloke. A man. Charles! OH god!”“Oh babe!” he sympathised, pulling her into another hug, “Why didn’t you tell me?”“Coz I thought you knew!” she squeaked.“So what happens now?” he asked.Mandy shrugged, “He wants to remain friends, but I don’t think I can actually do that. He says he cannot help the way he feels. But I don; think I can forgive him!”“Honey, don’t you think it is better staying as friends? He cannot control his feelings babe!” he reasoned, thinking differently of Nicky now.Mandy stared at him, “He cheated on m Whether it was with a bloke or with a woman, he cheated on me. I cannot forgive him for that!”Brian shrugged, “I guess I cannot blame you, really. I mean, I would probably be like that too. But you have had something special together for 6 years. Are you just going to throw it all away?”“He has been lying to me for all those years Brian. Our 6 years together were lived in a lie. It cannot be all that special!” she argued.Brian stared at her and grabbed her hand, “Babe. I know you are hurting. And I know you are angry and you have every right to be. But you need to have a good long chat with him about what happens next!”Mandy bit her lip and shrugged, “Just talking to him hurts, Brian!” she squeaked, releasing a new load of tears.Brian kept hold of her hand, “Oh I know it does sweetheart. But it has to be done. You need to sort this out!” he kissed her shaking hand.Mandy sighed and nodded, “I suppose you’re right!”“Good girl!” smiled Brian.“But not tonight. I cannot face him tonight!” she added.“That’s fine. Where are you staying tonight?” he questioned.“I’ll book myself into a hotel or something!” she shrugged, “All I know is that u cannot go home. Not tonight!”Brian shook his head, “You’re staying with me!” he stated.“Brian!” she sighed.“Hey, no. Don’t worry. As friends. Nothing more. I’ll sleep on the sofa. You can sleep in my bed!” he offered.“I cannot do that Brian!” she sighed.“Of course you can. I only changed the sheets this morning! It’s clean!” he winked jokingly.Mandy smiled amongst her tears, “It’s not that. it’s just…I’ll be ok in a hotel, honest!”“You are not wasting your money on a hotel room and that is final. You are sleeping at mine and I don’t want to hear another word about it!” he insisted.Mandy sighed and nodded, “Thanks Bri!”He smiled and pulled her in for another hug.“There you are. I have been looking everywhere for you” came a voice from beside them. Brian and Mandy pulled apart to see Sam and Shane standing there.Brian looked at her and smiled, “Sorry. I had an emergency!” he said, nudging his head towards Mandy.“It’s my fault, Sam. Sorry!” she sniffed.Sam looked at her, “Hey it’s ok. Are you ok? Didn’t you leave?”“I have been better. And yes I left and now I am back!” she frowned.“Awwwwww hun, it cannot be that bad!” she sympathised.“It is. And worse!” she sighed.Sam looked at Brian, who just shook his head, signalling to stop talking about it.She gave her a sympathetic smile and then looked at Brian, “Shane and I are off now!”“Oh, so it’s you two then. I wondered what that funny smell was!” he grinned.Sam looked at him and slapped his arm hard, “Don’t be so cheeky McFadden!”Brian just laughed and shook his arm, “Sorry. I couldn’t help it!”“I’ll see you tomorrow ok?” she laughed.Mandy nodded. Brian got up and shook Shane’s hand, “See ya mate. Drive safely!”They walked off and Brian sat back down, staring at Mandy.“Feeling any better?” he asked.“Not really!” she frowned.Brian sighed. He was about to say something when he heard the phone ringing. Mandy dug into her bag and fished her phone out. She looked at Caller ID and frowned.“Is it him?” asked Brian.Mandy bit her lip and nodded, but didn’t answer it.“Well, aren’t you going to answer it?” he asked.“I dunno!” she whispered.Brian snatched it off her hands, pressed the reply button and handed it back to Mandy, “Talk to him” he mouthed.Mandy looked at him as she slowly put the phone to her ear, “H-hello!” she stammered.Brian stared at her as she frowned, “NO, I am not ok Nicky…I don’t give a shit how sorry you are…stop fucking apologising, will ya? And stop saying you love me. You cannot love me that much…. How the fuck could you possibly love me?… No, I do not understand!”Brian massaged her shoulder when he noticed the state she was getting in again. Soon she calmed down and leaned her head back, “NO…I am not coming home tonight…Coz I cannot face it and I cannot face you, that’s why…I am staying at a friends…Yes, that’s right, at Brian’s, you have a problem with that?” she asked, staring at Brian, who just carried on massaging her shoulders. He then rubbed her back soothingly.“Yes ok. I’ll go over tomorrow morning and we’ll chat, ok?…Fine, see you tomorrow then. Goodbye!” she hung up and dried her tears.“That seemed tense!” grimaced Brian.“It was!” she frowned.“OH honey. I really wish there was something I could do!” he sighed, “I feel so helpless!”Mandy looked at him as she placed her hand on top of his, “You are doing enough Brian. Just by being here for me, that means the world to me. Thank you!”Brian shook his head, “I just wish I could make all your pain and fears go away. I hate seeing you like this. It hurts me too!” he sighed.Mandy smiled at him, “You’re sweet. I am just grateful that you are still here after the way I have treated you!” she smiled weakly.Brian smiled back, “How could I ever turn you away?” he whispered, brushing a lock of hair behind her ear and staring deep into her eyes.Mandy looked at him, “You told me not to turn to you if things went pear shaped!” she reminded him.“When did I say that?” he gasped.“When you came into my house after we had slept together!” she further reminded him.“Meh. That was just the green eyed monster coming out of me. I was an idiot. Like I could ever turn my back on you!”Mandy had this overwhelming urge to kiss him there and then, but she fought against it. It wouldn’t be a good idea and she would only lead him on. He had been too nice already and she felt it wasn’t fair on him. Instead she just smiled at him.“Are you really ok with me crashing at yours tonight?” she asked softly.Brian smiled and rubbed her cheeks, “Of course I am, princess. I hve always wanted to try out that sofa bed anyway!” he joked.Mandy smiled and leaned her cheek against his hand.“Well, I suppose we’d better get going then!” he smiled, checking the time and getting up, “Before we get kicked out!”