chapter 42

Brian tapped loudly on Nicky’s front door, demanding him to open it.
“Byrne, open up this door!” he growled.
Nicky ran to the door and opened it a fraction, “What do you want?” he asked, giving him a look of disgust.
“I want to talk to Mandy!” he demanded.
“She’s not here!” answered Nicky quickly, as he started closing the door.
Brian quickly put his hand to the door and stopped him from closing it.
“Her car is there. I know she is in here!” he growled.
“Well, she doesn’t want to talk to you!” he shrugged.
Brian sighed and stopped him from closing the door again, “And you know that for a fact do you? You haven’t even told her I am here!”
Nicky sighed and stared at him as he folded his arms, “Judging from what she was saying about you earlier, I don’t think she even wants to hear your name, let alone speak to you” he smirked.
“Why? What was she saying?” he asked, narrowing his eyes.
“OH I would love to tell you. Really, I would. But I don’t like to gossip!” he shrugged.
Brian sighed and trued to control his urge to punch that smirk out of his face. He bit his lip and took a deep breath, “Look mate. You are really testing my patience here. Now can you please just call Mandy so I can…”
“Calling her a slapper was not exactly the right move, was it Brian? Not if you wanna shack up with her!” he smirked, enjoying every little bit of this.
Brian sighed and just stared at him as he placed his hands on his hips.
“Nah! She likes the more gentle types. You know, the more sensitive guys!” he continued.
Brian snorted loudly.
Nicky raised his eyes and folded his arms as he leaned against the doorframe, “Problem?”
“No, not a problem as such. Well not for me anyway. More of a problem for you really!” he sniggered.
“Huh?” questioned Nicky.
“Well, I was thinking. It’s just a funny thought, you know, about how she wants a sensitive lad. Is that why she fell for you? Is that whys he married you? Coz of your sensitivity? Only, that didn’t work out too well did it?” he added quickly before he got interrupted, “Maybe she fell for someone far too sensitive, if you get my meaning!” He chuckled, giving as good as he got.
Nicky’s face changed and he straightened up now, “What do you mean by that?”
Brian grinned and got closer to him, “Figure it out yourself!” he whispered with a wink.
Nicky looked at him and shook his head, “I am closing the door now. You’re just not worth it. Don’t know what Mandy ever saw in you coz you’re nothing but an arrogant insensitive prick. And there is also a very bad smell coming into my house!”
“Ooh how come? Is your boyfriend heading this way then?” smirked Brian.
Nicky sighed and shook his head, “Goodnight Brian!”
Brian gave him an evil look and stopped him from closing yet again, “Not until I get to speak to Mandy!”
“I told you she does not want to see you. Are you not listening or something?” he shouted, now losing his patience.
“I don’t give a fuck. I am not leaving this place until I get to see her!” muttered Brian just as angrily.
“Well, you’re gonna be there for…” Nicky started laughing.
“Nix, it’s ok. I’ll talk to him. Thank you!” Mandy suddenly appeared behind him with her bathrobe on and a towel around her head. Brian looked at Nicky and smirked. Nicky sighed and stepped back.
“Bye bye!” mocked Brian with a wave.
Nicky grumbled as he walked back into the house. Mandy stepped outside and closed the door behind her, “What do you want?” she asked, folding her arms.
“Mandy. We need to talk!” he sighed.
“I think you said everything you needed to say earlier. Or is there more? Maybe you want to tell me how much of a slut I am again?” she grunted sarcastically.
“Mandz, you have to believe me. I did not mean a single word I said back there. I am so sorry!” he grovelled.
“No? Then why did you?” she admonished.
Brian sighed, “I just got angry. You used me Mandy. I think I had the right to be a bit upset. You bloody used me. You felt horny and shagged me without a care in the world about how I felt. Do you actually have any idea how I felt?”
“Yes. As a matter of fact I do!” she smirked.
Brian stopped talking and gave her confused looks.
Mandy sighed and rolled her eyes “Think back to 10 years ago!”
“What?” he shrieked.
“You slept with me and dumped me the next day!” she reminded me, “I lost my virginity to you and you didn’t give a fuck!!!”
“So you did this to get back at me for something that happened when I hadn’t even hit puberty properly yet?” he shrieked.
“No I didn’t do it because of that!” she sighed, sitting at the bench at her front porch. She picked up a flower and picked at the petals, “I don’t know why I did it. I guess I just got scared!”
“Scared? Scared of what, exactly?” he sighed.
“Scared of…I dunno. I don’t even know how I feel Brian. I just feel…Numb!” she frowned.
Brian shook his head, “You love me. I know you love me!”
Mandy shook her head, “No Brian. I know I don’t love you!” she sighed.
“Yes you do. I have seen the way you look at me when you think I am not looking. You have slept with me twice, snogged me once. I know you have feelings for me. I just know it, and don’t deny it!” he insisted.
“I love Nicky!” she sighed, looking at the ground.
Brian sighed deeply and sat next to her, grabbing her hand, “Mandy, you do know you are not going to get him back, right?”
“I can make him love me again> I can make him be a real man again. He loved me once, he can love me again!” she whined, pulling her hand away from his.
“Oh honey, you’re in denial babe. He has made his choice. He wants men, Mandz. People don’t change their sexuality just like that. You are not going to change him!” he sighed.
Mandy nodded, “Oh but I will!”
“Listen Mandz. Yes, he does love you. Of course he loves you. You have been a part of his life for years now. But love has so many definitions. I am sure that when he married you, he really loved you, but he was far too scared to admit to himself that he was gay. That is why he got married. To try and prove that he wasn’t. Only, he was and is feelings got stronger and stronger, and no matter how hard he tried to ignore those feelings, they would just come back. You are never going to change him babe.” He explained.
“You are only saying that because you want to steal me away from him. Well it is not gonna work!” she sneered.
Brian shook his head, “NO, I am only saying it because I don’t want you to get hurt anymore than you already hurt!”
“Why are you doing this to me Brian? Why don’t you want to see me happy?” she screamed with tears in her eyes.
“OH babe. I do. I want to see you happy more than anything in the world. God only knows how unhappy you have been lately and you deserve every ounce of happiness that gets thrown your way. That’s why I am here!” he sighed.
“NO, you just want to take me away from him…” she sneered, wiping her eyes.
“…So you don’t get hurt!” he answered exasperatedly.
“You are wasting your time Brian. Go back home!” she huffed.
“Not until you come with me!” he sulked, knowing she wouldn’t.
“It is not gonna happen!” she answered stubbornly, folding her arms.
“Fine. Then I am not leaving until you do!” he looked at her and folded his arms aswell.
“Very well. I just hope it doesn’t get too cold!” she smirked, walking back indoors.
“Why are you being like this?” he shouted angrily.
“Because you are just a selfish prat who only cares about himself!” she looked at him in contempt.
“I just want you to come with me so you don’t suffer anymore!” he growled, “Just come with me will ya?”
“No!” she answered defiantly.
!Mandz!” he whined.
“I said no!” she repeated, looking at him and panting.
Brian sighed, “Fine. I tried. I just hope someone will be there for you to pick up the pieces when you realise that he is never going to be what you want him to be.” He growled, storming off.
Mandy watched him and then walked back inside, closing the door softly after her.
“Are you ok?” asked Nicky as she walked into the living room.
Mandy smiled, “Yep. Everything’s fine. He’s gone now. And he’s never coming back!”